Wonderful Me!!! Yeah, Right...

   Why am I such an ass? How do I manage to turn something so beautiful into a huge catastrophic mess? How do I manage to hurt the one I love most more so than I ever hurt others? Why did I say the things I said? How could I be so wrong and not even know it at the time?

   All these questions and no answers. How could I let down someone I love so much? The person I cared about more than anyone else confided in me more than anyone else and I let her down. How could this be? Why did I react to the situation the way I did?

   I was her knight in shining armor, her savior. The answer to her life, and her escape from her pain. That was all I wanted to be too. I would have been content mopping floors, picking cans out of trash cans, or flipping burgers, being a walking cliche if she loved me and was proud of me. I would have been content as long as I made her happy.

   But now the one thing I cared most about is gone... Why? I don't know. I guess I am just one big let down. Losing her would not hurt so bad had I not hurt her before I lost her. Even more mind warping, I had no clue that I was being hurtful until I had already hurt her. I guess I just need to think more about things I do or say before I say or do it.

   Well, I am done complaining about my own fuck up now. Sorry everyone, just couldn't let my song go unsung. Have a nice day everyone.